Heh.. where should i start? damn...

5 years passed since i joined the NG community ( 2013) heh where all this time went? now that i look back i can't belive how much time passed and i can't believe  how meaningless and evil the word past is , at least for me , is time that you will never get back, just memories but not even memories will last forever , don't get me wrong i don't regret what i did in that time, i was a child who enjoyed life but now that i look from the perspective from my age i mean i'm almost 17 in a year i will be 18 and i have to think about my future , i'm scared of the future... no, better said i'm scared of not achiving my dreams...

  I meet a lot of kind and nice people who helped me improve in my young days(special thanks to 1999Elias and kkots)  and i'm so glad that i was part of this community , i wasn't the best, i wasn't the most hardworking person , i was childish and lazy but even2 i was like that i'm proud of myself because at least i can say that i did something , it wasn't the best animation ,it wasn't the longest animation but it was something made by myself by my hands and this is what i'm most proud of! I want to thanks for all the people who supported me , i learned a lot at least now that you have to work practice hard if you want to become to the field  you want to be in! Never lose hope and never care what people say just if they have a good intention! never compare yourself to the people who are proffesional, everybody start from the bottom...

Thanks for you'r time reading this idk why i wrote this but i just wanted to write how my heart feels right now

And the last i want to ask you guys :

What are your dreams? What is the motivation that helps you pursing your dreams? what is your inspiration? how you deal with the problems when you feel down? thank you so much again and thank you NG for this community! I hope i will rejoin this community and stop being the guy who wants to "fight" on his own...

Here is an animation i did 5-3 years ago

https://www.newgrounds.com/dump/item/6d43dfbb92594a42d30397a2a1819794